Wednesday 11 June 2014

Superman

After watching that god awful film, 'Man of Steel' again, I think I've realised what the main problem was. It shouldn't have been about Superman, it should have been about Lois Lane and how she gradually uncovers who this mysterious man is. The film was made to look gritty and realistic, which is just silly. It's about an invincible alien who can fly. It should be centred around someone we can relate to. A human.
At the very least, Lois Lane would have had a character arc and some personality instead of being a bland plot device and a complete waste of Amy Adams' talents.
I blame Zack Snyder. It's only because of 'Dawn of the Dead' and 'Watchmen' that I don't hunt him down and make trophy out of his noggin. (that and the fact I haven't got any money to put a hit out on him)
... oh, and I also liked 'Sucker Punch'. I know many people hated it, but I was affected by what the film was. It was as attempt, by the main protagonist, to create a reality for herself where she had power over her own bleak existence. She had been completely powerless, and a victim, all through her life, and now she had been condemned to a future which would consist of catatonia and lifelessness. She created this other reality out of desperation and necessity to cope with what was happening and what she had to deal with. I enjoyed it. It showed Zack Snyder might have depth...
... but then he made 'Man of Steel' and showed us just how badly he can destroy something that should have been great.

Friends

I hate having no friends and no family. I hate having no one to talk to. I hate having no one to share things with. Rik Mayall died and I have no one to talk to about it and no one to watch any of his stuff with. I want to watch 'Bottom' and 'Rik Mayall Presents...' with my old friends and have a laugh about what a genius the guy was and how much he meant to me growing up. But I have no one.
And that's shit... and it's depressing.

Reboot

When I thought about the title of this quick post, I thought I should call it 'Reset'. But that wouldn't be right. 'Reset' would mean that everything is the same about me and I have another go. That's not what I want. I want change. Change in me. About who I am. I want a reboot. I want it all to start again and I want changes in the aesthetics of who I am. I want to look different. I don't necessarily want to be more handsome. Let's say for a second that my attractiveness to others (physically) is the same as it is now. I don't find myself attractive and the amount of people who find me attractive, from my experience, is very limited. What I want to change is my height, which is something I had no control over, and the way my face hangs when I'm minding my own business and not thinking about a thing. My height, let's not ask for too much, but an extra five inches would still class me as someone who is short (ish), but I would not be looked on as something less than others because of it. The way my face hangs, I just don't want to look like I'm miserable/angry/confused when I'm not feeling a thing. After a while, I found that this has taken its toll on me. If I could ask for something else, it would be a different voice. My voice is low, quiet and monotone. Boring would be a better way of putting it. Without ever doing anything wrong, I've ended up a very short, very miserable looking, very droning bore. And it's defeated me. I've ended up very lonely and very sad. These have also ended up making me even less attractive to others. It's exhausting to try to tread water just so I can keep my lips above the lapping waves and I feel that the battle has almost got the better of me. I want a reboot.